My Heart Drippings Went Into This Post! – The Evolution of Writing a Painful Memoir on Caregiving & Family Drama Is Transformative

I’ve got a story to tell.  I’ve mentioned it over the years in my blog, starting out with the series entitled, Terror on the Caregiver.

It is about how I am left feeling betrayed by my siblings and other family members, as I earnestly served as my mother’s sole caregiver, until her ascension.  It is a very painful story to tell, even nearly 10 years after the rivalry began.

I often stop, then start writing.  That’s because writing the story hurts me.  I recently hinted at this back and forth feeling in the post Maybe Is the Theme, dated February 1, 2022.  Each time I make substantial progress, I uncover yet another level of emotions, going through transformative experiences, examining myself, and trying to understand how God works each time.

As of today, the pain of the story becomes unbearable only on occasion.  Now, I accept that I must author this story for authoring it will give me the power to formally end hurting inside, and ultimately free myself from it. Continue reading “My Heart Drippings Went Into This Post! – The Evolution of Writing a Painful Memoir on Caregiving & Family Drama Is Transformative”

Quotes & Videos For Days On Courage – There Is A Calling To Be Bold & Have Courage – To Be Okay With Uncertainty – Maybe U Are Being Summoned?

“Courage is not just plunging in when you don’t know the way, it is plunging in and being okay with not knowing the way.” – Kevy Michaels

I’m not one to bite my tongue when it comes to expressing how I feel. But that’s because today I have courage. I didn’t always have courage. In the past, my fears were really centered around being accepted by others, having low self-esteem, and not being confident in myself. I spent a great deal of my life trying to please others. Because of that fear, and not having courage, I made my life quite miserable. I made many mistakes. But, even in those mistakes, I’m so grateful. Because, that’s why I have the courage today, and I can speak up.

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7 Days 7+ Quotes – Integrity – A Value We Impose On Ourselves – It Says Everything About Who We Are – 9 Tips to Help You Strengthen Your Integrity

“Lying lips [are] abomination to the LORD: but they that deal truly [are] his delight.” – Proverbs 12:22

Integrity is one of my most valuable virtues.

Now that I am well on my spiritual journey, maintaining Integrity has become of greater importance in every choice that I make or action I take.

The reason I give Integrity such importance has to do partly with my age and experience.  And, having had many people in my life who were not “of their word”.  …Friends, Family, and Colleagues.

The choices and challenges that I face today are generally not new ones. As they say, ‘This is not my first rodeo’. It seems that most of the choices I face today are ones in which I am already well-experienced. On most challenges to my Integrity, I have made incorrect choices in the past, and am well aware of the consequences of not being true. So, I ensure that I am, no matter what the truth may bear.

It may not be easy for others to make the correct choices, and to be regarded as men or women of their my word.  …Not I!

Aging has also caused me to focus more on a legacy. My legacy is important to me. The reason it is of such importance is that when God comes for me, I want to be able to leave a message, purpose, and inspiration behind for others.

I am very serious about leaving a legacy. My tombstone is already engraved with: ‘His mission on Earth is complete’.

I simply do not see my life today as exclusively dedicated to myself. I do for others in daily deeds, but also for my best virtues to be reflected upon and be useful to others.

My poetry, stories, social media content, and blog posts reflect the legacy that I am creating. I practice what I preach, believe the things I write, eat the foods I recommend, and follow the health regimens that I write about. Continue reading “7 Days 7+ Quotes – Integrity – A Value We Impose On Ourselves – It Says Everything About Who We Are – 9 Tips to Help You Strengthen Your Integrity”